Why can't things work out for me? I feel like I'm losing my marriage.

My counseller says I should change my thinking, and she's right. Instead of thinking "my life sucks" I should think ok, yeah, it's bad, but it's not that bad. ... I should think of where my thoughts of 'my life sucks' comes from, where I learned to treat myself that way.

Is that thinking from my past? I learned it somewhere - where did I learn it? Who taught me that?

Hubby and I are fighting. I feel like he doesn't care about how I feel or what I think. I feel that the only thing he wants is what makes him happy and fuck the rest of us. I don't know what's going on. But I know he won't set up an appointment for marriage counselling. There's always an excuse.

So, is he ready for this to end?


or is he right - it's all my fault.


All I know is that I'm so fucking lonely.