I'm hungry. But not really. My brain craves food that my body doesn't need. Yes, I'm a big girl. It embarrasses me but at the same time it doesn't.

I've had more sex as a fat chick then I ever have as a skinny chick. My husband shares me with other men. We have a semi-open relationship.

He's not interested in me. He shares me to take care of my needs, and desires other women. I'm still not sure how I feel about this.

Our daughter is the joy of my life.

My struggle with food and my sex life are the highlights of my struggles right now. They change daily, sometimes hourly depending on how I feel.

But more on that later.